6.23.2009

I'm soooooooooo sad right now.

so the apt situation.. well.. I'm on my way to MAYBE paying June's rent. I just transferred money from my savings to my checking and depending on what happens when I talk to the manager, I may have to actually use the money that I transferred. I'm just super sad because this is one life lesson I wish I could have avoided. I haven't worked hard all summer so far just so that I could shovel the money away on something that I definitely dont want to use it on. I mean yes, I was gonna use the money for school, but not for these specific purposes. I'm just having to accept having to swallow my pride, give in, and hope that "this too shall pass."

6.12.2009

If it's not one BLESSING, it's another!

Sooo, wow. I have been on such a journey finding myself, who I want to be, what I want to do with life.. all of my dreams/goals/aspirations, etc.. And also trying to find myself in God.

I have been praying a lot more, about everything, even little things. I seek God more now then I ever did before and the blessings have been so overwhelming!

I was praying about the situation that I last blogged about (with the apt) and just when I thought it was the end, it wasn't. There's this quote, "Everything works out in the end. If it hasn't worked out, it isn't the end." Well, that quote is very true. After going back and fourth with the people at the apartment about this extra two months of rent and praying to God that it worked out & that I didn't have to pay them, turns out there is no way getting around it. And thats when I thought it was over. But wait, God wasn't done with me yet.

A few months back.. no, actually, in April, I filed my state taxes, which are usually no where even close too $100, right. And this year, they didn't come as quickly as last year so after a while, I forgot about them. When I was praying to God, I also asked him for more money in my life. Well, I got more money. Today, I checked my bank account online and my state taxes were deposited and it was well over a few hundred dollars. How, well, i don't know, and I really don't care to find out. All I know is that God is an awesome God!

So, the other thing is that God leads you in certain situations, but in the end, you have to make the choice of which way to go. When it came to this apt thing, I went the wrong way. But in saying that, I learned a life lesson. This whole thing with paying them extra is something that I just have to suck up. But I'm happy that I won't cut my summer savings by half, by having to pay them. Getting that refund was a blessing and I am so thankful for it!

If it isn't one blessing, it's another! Thank you God!

6.09.2009

It's Been A While . . .

[clears throat] Well, here I am , back again!

I'm in such a slump right now. I'm at home for the summer and I work a summer job. When school starts back in the fall, I'll be living in an apartment, 4bdrm, 4 bth. Wonderful, you think? Well not so much. I'm gonna make this story as short as possible... I signed the lease for this place in october of 2008 for 10 mos, august thru may. right? When I signed, I chose the biggest bedroom in the apt. Then, in december, over my christmas break, I got an update from the apt about the address and blah blah, except they had changed my room assignment to a smaller room.

So I called them fussing because who wouldnt want the bigger room, right? Basically, they changed my room assignment because the room I chose was only for people who signed 12 month leases. soooo, I calmed down because I had signed a 10 month lease. then, in may, they sent another letter to my home telling me about other updates, like my parking space. So then there was another mistake.

To get to the point, they changed my lease from 10 mos to 12 mos between december and may. not only that, but they did not change my bedroom back. How they changed my lease, I don't know. And I don't know how to fight it either. So now, I've been pushed into paying rent for two months (june & july) for an apartment that I won't even be living in. Isn't that something? I haven't paid them because I am still trying to fight this. I'd give more details but I don't want to be typing forever.

Until then, wish me good luck. :)

6.02.2009

Macy's, Inc.

So, I'm on my way to work, sort of. Well, I'm more like, sitting in front of the computer contemplating what I want to get up and get ready for work. I really DO NOT want to go. This summer will mark my third year working for Macy's. And let me say this, it's not as glamorous as it may sound. But then again, money is money, and in my position, I need whatever I can get!

over & out :(

6.01.2009

Health and Fitness Goals

Here is where you will find me for most of the summer! Here is where you will find my main story!

I have been going back and fourth with my weight now for about 3 years. I've been trying to lose weight using different types of diets and I've even tried changing my diet and exercising too! why did none of those work? They are all good options but they didnt work because I wasn't doing it right!

About a month ago, I went to Bally's or some like to say Bally Total Fitness. Anyway, I signed up for a membership, which I was able to get a low rate for college students. In the first week, I went three times. Then, I went M.I.A. for about a week in a half. THENNNNNN, about another week later, I get a call saying that I have one free consultation with a personal trainer, so I sign up immediately! I meet with Olivia and she give's me lots of tools and tips that I've been using since working out with her and they really are working. I'm really serious about my weight this time, and in the fall when I return to my university, I want to be 30-45 pounds lighter than what I am now.

Maybe the next time I post about this, I'll show pics to track my progress.

what's your take on fitness? did I inspire you?

Love Is . . .

I'm in love with the idea of love! When you look at my list of movies you'll notice that a lot of those movies are about love. If you look at my profile pic, there is a heart dangling from my jeans! lol come on now!

Ever read the newspaper and read the little "love is..." inserts? well, me neither! lol But my uncle and my aunt collect them and post them on their fridge, so whenever I go over there, I read them and they always make me smile. I'm saying all of this to say that I think I've been in love with the same person for almost five years now. The problem: everything!

I've known this guy since I was fifteen years old and we've always been in the category of friends! Have we ever stepped over the friend boundary? OF COURSE! In fact, we over step the whole friendship things all the time!

We've never directly talked about wanting to be with one another, though yes, I have written him one, and ONLY ONE, letter before descring my affection for him. Was that a mistake? tell me, I won't be mad! He never really had a response to that letter, and yet I continue to allow him to overstep that boundary. I guess that I have hopes, very high hopes, of us one day being together. One of the problems is that he's afraid to committ and he's just immature for a gal like me. I'll admit, sometimes, I can be intimidating . . . but I would hope that he could see this as a challenge.

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Who Am I?

Thats a good question, right? Well, for starters, I'm twenty years old and in August I'll be a junior in college. I'm female and I'm a pretty great student. My major is English Education, but in way, shape or form do I plan to teach for a living. I want to do something fun and exciting, like be a writer! I want to write novels, books of poetry and even literature books if I can challege myself to go that far. I love to write, all the time! I have something in the works now and am very willing to share, when the time is right!


What are your dreams and aspirations?

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